he snapped himself out of my life

we first spoke on snapchat.  it wasn't love at first sight but he did grow on me over time.  I thought maybe he might like me.  boy was I wrong.  he was so adorable and nerdy.  it was so cute.  I knew something was wrong when he asked me to send him what he thought I had sent him before.  that was the first clue.  it all changed after that he got all wierd and angry.  I still wanted him even though he said to me what he said to everyone else.  he was a great distraction from the last guy I hoped we could have been friends.  but he turned out to be like every other guy wanting pictures or nothing at all.  I picked the latter and we were over just like that.  I thought I was over him but I still think about him sometimes.  it's hard when you fall for someone so quickly and they shove aside just as fast.  we only knew each other for a month but that month was the happiest one I've had in a long time.  I just wish it could have worked out but he blocked me now.  apparently I have issues but as julia said you have them too.  sometimes I wonder if I'm sabotaging myself because I like the pain but why would someone cause themselves pain.  I miss him but it's over I'll move on soon but know I will dwell