This love has taken its toll on me

So he hasn't answered my texts for a fortnight now actually 19 days to be exact.  He is either dead, has no wifi, or is ignoring me.  I dont mind if he is ignoring me because I do that too sometimes.   I guess that means I'm done.  No more drunk dialing.  No more stupid texts on his birthday.   Nothing.  I'm moving on and I mean it this time one more drunken text is all I'm allowing myself.  Which will happen on new years eve when I'm very drunk.  And then goodbye.  Goodbye to your memories.  Goodbye to those air conditioned summers.  I'm almost done using the cologne I bought for his birthday.   It still reminds me of him but it's a limited edition so I'll probably never smell it again.  I hate this part.   The part where you have to force yourself to let go because I think I still love him but it can't go on because it's starting to tread into stalker territory.  I know I'll regret this one way or another but it's been way to long i met him in June 2010.  That was the best summer ever.  And now it's just a memory that I will lock away in my head where I can't remember it.  A memory that will be blocked out until I hear his name or pass his st or even see him again.  THE END I HOPE

I did it again

At first I thought his friend may have liked me but it was becoming more obvious that he didn't when he left.  He only left because we left him out of the conversation.   And that's when his friend started hitting on me.  And i didn't think he was serious at first.  But he was kinda cute though and I was bored so ..........

I knew it was a mistake and he will probably tell his friends when he is drunk but I don't care because not a lot happened.  I wish I hadn't but it was fun.  And now he probably won't even look at me if I ever see him again.  This is so sad I kind of liked talking to him as a person and now he'll look right past me as if I'm part of the scenery.

This is why I don't have a boyfriend

So a guy drives by signals to me and makes a u turn.  I should have known it would end badly from that.  a few days later We go to a pool hall and drink some beer.  As we approach my destination he asks if it's OK for him to jerk off.  WTH IS THIS WHAT A FIRST DATE ENDS WITH?  WHAT IS WRONG WITH MEN THEY ARE SO GROSS   

The job lasted a bit longer than a fortnight

It was not entirely my faughlt.  They gave me old ads to call.  A main reason for being let go was because of the lack of ads I got for the peridical.  How can they expect me to obtain ads when they send me out to get organic juice, perscriptions, and make your coffee.  And on top of that I had to proof read ads and send emails to over 25 company's.  Who has time to get ads.  This was very stressful.  I knew I would get sacked because the boss kept whispering in my ear "Sara if you don't get ads I won't have any use for you" several times a day.  

I got a job

I got a job. That's pretty cool. I hope it lasts long enough for me to get a new something. I only got one top on the Black Friday sales. I saw two others but I didn't want in the end. This weekend was interesting I hung out with a guy that I used to know I met him through Aaron. He asked me about Eric. I smiled and laughed. I didn't tell him what I knew about Eric I thought it might be weird. It was a long weekend. I hope I have more like them.

Saturday

Tonight I texted him.  I don't think he will text me back but that's OK I'll leave him alone after new years (he got back to me)

dear straight men

I'm talking to you guys.  Stop it seriously.  I know the way your minds work by now and its really hilarious. Sso this is what you do.  Get girl drunk,try and take her home.  OK not every straight guy does this but calling her stupid names will not help her fall for you.  Baby,princess,your my queen.  seriously you need to come up with something better than that.  And telling the girl you love her after seeing her five times walking past your work does not make her want to have sex with you.  It makes her want to run away but she cant because you work on the block of her home so she will keep seeing you as she walks by your work but she will not put out "unless your super sexy and shes bored"  Slut shaming is not a thing to be messed with.  

facebook stalking

i dont do that.......  Ok everyone does it.  Maybe they don't realize it but when you look at someones profile or pictures your technically stalking them.  when you have a lot of time on your hands ,no pun intended, you get bored so you need to come up with creative ideas to make the day go by faster so i usually ......................   

first draft

So i start off my day waking up at noon.  I than have brunch, because brunch is always better than lunch or breakfast, and then walk the "family" dog.  I don't like giving her a bath because than she has a feeling of loathing towards me and a pets love is the only true love because 99.99% of the male population ,or all the guys I've dated so far, are dick-heads.  I then go online and "look for a job" as I hashtag my "boring" life on facebook.  Every day starts the same but doesn't end the same.  I usually add a stationary bike exercise/dance to the music as i wash dishes routine.

     

side note

oh and i also live with my parents as if the title wasn't pathetic enough